Someone asked the Dalai Lama what surprises him most. This was his response:
"Man, because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then he dies having never really lived."
This is easily the worst year of my life…I feel like I have no sense of purpose. Each day I try to find reasons to get out of bed but some days I have nothing. I was happy once, but that is just a memory now, and its fading. I’m fading too…
There are so many things I wish I could be. But more than anything else I wish I was perfect. Not perfect looking, not the perfect height or weight, not perfect at any sport or activity. I just wish I was perfect for you.